JERKS!

just when you think you can trust somebody and you think that you are friends dont trust them too much because they might end up betraying you. my own bestfriend who has also lost a sibling also betrays me by slashing my mother on how good of a mother she is. people react to similar inccidents different. my mother has done everything she can to try to help me and my family through a hard time that was unexpected. no one is trained to undergo such a tragic thing. i know myself personally can not for an hour not think about my brother or how i cant remember the last time i saw him or that i willl never get to see him again. she not only has to deal with that but has to deal with the fact that she found her son shot dead in his car while the door was jammed and she couldnt get to him. she has to deal with that image for the rest of her life and how she thinks that in some way she could have prevented it. and no one can understand this situation by no means unless they have gone through it. i cnat possibly feel the pains of a mother alone finding her child dead, but i can feel the pains i have from not having my brother or not being able to see his face and say good bye. the day of his death i could not remember the last time i saw him and two days later i will learn that even at his funeral i will not be able to see him because it will be a closed casket. i hope no one has to feel the way my family feels and i pray that they wont.