bars

i never really knew how dirty bars really were until i chose to help clean one yesterday afternoon. i swear this bar hasnt really been up and running in at least two years. it reaked of old beer and old men. i swear i swept that at least ten times and still found my self coming across dirt. i was told that the place needed to be mopped so i thought that it would be pretty simple to just go over there and just mop it but no one seemed to inform me that the place had to be swept, bathrooms needed to be cleaned, booths needed to be washed, tables need to be scrubbed, and chairs needed to be wiped. so i found my self doing all of these choors andrealizing that a bar really is one of the dirtiest place that i have ever been. i oculdnt even imagine being in one with all of the dirt and scum no telling what all happens at bars it is completely disgusting. i have promised myself that i would never make my nose go through that awfull smell again.

cards

its an oldpastime in my family that i have learned all of my life. you know every time you go to visit my 83 and 84 year old grandparents that we are going to play pedro or hi low jack. these games have really helped me bond with my grandpaerents who seem not to understand today time and age. i am always partners with my grandad. grandma i dont think ever in history has been on grandads team. they like to bicker at one another for cheating or for bidding over one another on purpose just to make the other one mad, but i love the conversations and gossip i get from them while i play. you cna learn alot witting there just watching they seem to know about everyone and what everyone in daviess county is doing no matter what age they are. they are the wisest people i know. i feel like everytime im there i seem to gain some of their knowledge. ovewr alli dont know what i would do if i didnt have them to spend time with, they are the life of the family they will always betruthful no matter what.

Hayden's Drive In

i am getting so sick and tired of working! It seems like i am there all the time if im not sleeping or at school im at work. Sometimes my co-workers can be a pain in my butt. I feel like every single one them are my siblings. i can get in fights with one of them and then ten minutes later we both are laughing at eachother. i love workking with people i know but too much of neone will aggrivate me. i feel like i have to keep secrets from them or else they will tell my boss who we call momma. it is like a real family out ther my bosses are momma and daddy and no one wants to get in trouble with them . it doesnt even have to be work related if i do anything wrond morally that they wouldnt aprove i wouldnt even dare to speak of it while at work. over all i still love where i work just every once in a while i would like a break.

my soulmate

i feel like i have never before felt this way about someone in my life. my boyfriend who deserves a better title than that because he is so great, he always thinks aboot me first. he has taken my little brother in as his own and has tryed to be the brother Josh would have been. He tries his hardest to do what he thinks is best for me or for my family. he always put me first. I wish i could be half the girlfriend that he is a boyfriend. idk what i would ever do if somthing was to happen to him. not only does he stand by my side but his family is great to. the pretty treat me like i am their own child. i feel at home at their house and have never felt nervous there. my boyfriends sister was kind of Josh's crush so they fill for me while im going through this hard time. Its like im already married to him. his family knows my family and i love it!

my dream

last night i woke up balling my eyes out. i had to retrack what i had dreamt, you know how you dream somthing nd then you cant seem to remember what you dreamed about. well, this was not at all like this. I seem to remeber every detail of this dream. it was like a miracle. the dream started out that i was on the intdernet and i was looking for someway to contact my brother who had disapeared like a year earlier. i was going through tons of websites just looking. most of the dream consisted of this, my mom was also helping me out with this. well after looking through all of the sites my mom told me she had some how contacted him a few months ago nd he was trying to find a way home and that he had still been going to church every sunday like my family had before my parents got divorced nd when all of us kids still lived in the house nd went to school. i was talking to my mom about all of this nd how proud i was of my brother whom i had never showed an ounce of emotion in front of.(in my household as brothers and sisters strength and being tough is how we showed love.) well my mom left the room and someone enter the house nd shut the door i paid no attention to this and just thought it was my oldest brother Jeffrey. well, soon that person came up to me and stuck somthing smelly in front of my nose and i hitt there hand and kind of yelled at them to stop. when i turned around i saw Josh my long lost brother staring back at me laughing how he used to when he aggrivated me. i then shot him a stare and for once in my life i took the mean look off my face and ran up to my brother and hugged him as i weeped. he just stood there hugging me back as he had never done before and everything seemed to stand still and thats when i woke up in a frenzy balling my eyes out. it seemed to all cometogether, how my dream seemed to be the way my brother was reaching out to me in a way i had never endured and seemed to make me feel as if he was still there and that he was watching over me and i will never in my life forget this dream because i will never forget the memory of my brother who cared about my family and about his faith

phones

i never knew how addicted to my phone i actually was untill yesterday. i was in the bathroom at work and i was turning to walk out and as i did i heard a plopping noise and i turned around to find that my phone had fallen out of my jacket pocket into the toilet. thank goodness i had flushed the toilet cause i soon as i saw it my hand went fingertip first into the bowl of the toilet i sure am glad it wasnt pee water cause i didnt think twice before i did it. i pulled it out and immediately took a towel and dried every individual piece of my phone and i ran out of the bathroom almost in tears and my boss came to my rescue with a blow drier, so i worked on my phone and i worked on my phone trying to bring it back to life but its poor soul didnt make it through and i found myself the maddest i have been in a long time jsut staring at my phone thinking that if i had just put it in my jeans pocket i would never have had to go through this tragic event. i felt so lonely it was the o0ne of the worst feelings i had had in three months. i felt like i had lost a part of me. this story is so sad but true that i found my self shedding a tear over a cell phone that in no way really could identify me.