i was afraid of....

as a child i was afraid of many things. the first time i watched the exorcist i was about 8 and i was so scared that i wouldnt move from the couch to go to bed because i was afraid that the possesed girl would come after me and puke on me while her head was spinning round and round. when i finnally went to bed i turned on all the lights in the house and raced to my room and tried to fall asleep when i started to feel somthing shaking my bed and i thought it was just in my head but this shaking went on for a couple more minutes so i ran off in a hurry scared for my life and come to find out my older brother had been under my bed the whole time waiting for me to go to bed so he could scare me i was also told as a child that if i didnt clean my fingernails everyday that i woulod get worms. another thing my mom lied to me about was that if i was tucked into my bed tight enough that the field mice would come into my room crawl up into my bed and eat me, but i think she told me that one out of pleasure.

fight with dignity

is it better to fight with dignity or surrender with shame? i think it is better to fight with dignity. i am a very argumentive person when it comes to things i strongly believe in. when someone questions my beliefs i become very defensive and "fight with dignity". i have been like this all my life, i speak up for what i stand for and what i think is right. i never let anyone push their beliefs or opinions on me. i simply agree to disagree because i won't come down. it doesnt matter who it is i will always stand my ground!

something to think a bout

"never be afraid to sit awhile and think" is a quote by Lorraine Hansberry. alot of us forget to simply take a break from our hectic lives and jus think. Its hard to do when we become so consumed by our daily schedules. at times it becomes to stressful to be so involved all of the time. thats why i like this quote because it gives us a chance to stop and realize everything that is going on. it is a good idea to take a breather and just sit, relax, and rest.

act slowly!

i think that before you do somthing you should think it over therefore you are acting slowly. acting slowly can help you in the long run from getting your self into trouble. if you think before you act you might be better off. cause you may think fast but allow yourself time to rethink what your about to do before you do it. i dont usually rethink things over before i say them and usually i say them and get myself into a lot of trouble. my mouth is the action i dont do slowly.

Money

money is not everything. to be happy you truly don't have to be rich you can find happiness elsewhere. i dont care what everyone thinks no matter how much money i get it will never bring happiness that priceless things can. family and friends should bring happiness to everyone one and not materialistic things

deadliest tan!

oh my lord! wow, i didn't know the price of a tan was so high. scientists have proven that tanning beds can be a great cause of skin cancer. i never knew that by going to the tanning bed i was putting myself into danger. unfortunately i still continue to go. its like a relaxing place the warmness just calms me. but a girl of my fair skin is way more susceptible to receive skin cancer. so by going to the tanning bed especially before the age of thirty i ma most likely doubling my chance to have skin cancer.

Luckyyy man

what you here in the news today can be so overwhelming its just mindboggling. i heard in the news just yesterday that a drunken teen making his way back from a festival in europe decided to take a nap on a railway track. what amazes me is that a train roared over him and the 19 year old man remained asleep through the whole incident. the train was not able to stop until a few hundred meters past the teen. the young man walked away with only a few grease stains on the back of his jacket. god was obviously watching over him. all of these cazy storries are just unreal and draw me in to want to know how these type of things happen.

doing somthing good!

about a week or two ago my youth group pitched in to help an individiual with cancer. we through together a big mud pit and raised money for this young lady to help towards her hospital bills. we have been raising money for her. i think no one should deserve to go though what she is going through. so in any way that my church can be of assistance we are there in a flash. i have knownm this girl for quite sometime and it just broke my heart to hear what she is going through and not knowing what is going ot happen next but she continues to have hope and i always keep her in my prayers.

homework!!

wow! i never have time to do my homework anymore. i am always so busy and it stresses me out -so much. i dont know why i always have so much homework and most of the time i have to do it when i wake up the mext morning and i dont always complete it. having a job and havin all of this homework is just way too much. i don't know what to do about it anymore. i try my hardest to get everything i need done but i dont always succeed. i just need a break from school........

can't wait!

home is just a place i sleep. after i am done with high school my next goal is to move imediately out. i cant wait to get the privacy i deserve. the only person who makes home feel like home for me is myself. just the adventure of finally being out on my own will be pleasing enough for me. although i willl miss my family it willl be more rewarding knowing that i can take care of my self with out their help