spanish video project!

wow! i didnt think that doing a video by yourswelf could be so hard. thank goodness my little brother was home to hold the camera. it is already hard enough to know how to speak spanish but be able to speak it on the spot is hard. this experience has been really eye opening. i guess i wont miss class again so i dont have to group work all by myself. make up work is alreaqdy hard but if u add on somthing as hard as a video that u have to edit and make look good it just becomes a biug hassle i dont think i actually leaqrned anything that will help me in spanish class.

finals

this is the worst time of the school year and it comes twice. itsw called finals. Finals are so stressfull and u feel like you have to cram everything in. we stress all the way up until this time to get all ofr our grades to a's so that we might be able to exempt out of the classes we think are going to be the hardest. we all know that we probably wont be able to get all a's and most likely will have to take one or two hard finals. i think finals are really pointless how will they help me. the only thing the do is add on stress during the christmas season and require us to have to study the hardeswt that we have ever studied to get a grade that cant really be sure whether or not you actually listened or if you cramed it in just to get a good grade.

snow

i cant wait for winter! its my favorite time of the year because thats when you can make snow men nd build snow forts and have snow ball fights. my birthday is also in the winter it is the 8th of january. the only time i do not like the winter is when we have ice storms because power outages suck! althought hey ar4e very fun to be out of school but i alos hate having to make up school till june the 5th for the time we missed for the ice storm! but i do not like waking up in the morning and it being cold i like everything about winter except the coldness.

work!

why do we call work work?? dont we go to college so that we can pursue our dreams and do somthing with our lives that we enjoy? And if we do become what we want to be for the rest of our lives wouldnt u want it to be somthing we like? so therefore when i grow older and graduate from college and start my carreer my job wont be work. i will call it fun. fun is a better description word for our jobs that we have spent 1/4 of our lives preparing for. we go to school to set up our lives for what we want to do you may not know that when you are a 1st grader but asw we grow and learn we find out that we are schooled to set up our lives for success those who dont complete school usually arent successfull!

stupid cups without lids!!

i think all containers that are meant to hold some sort of liquid shoud have a top that cant be taken off. It isw just a hassle when your always cleaning up messes because somone has spilt thier drink. i spilt my drinki this morning. i was watching the morning announcements when i got up to say the pledge i had my drink in my hand and the next thing i remeber is the drink all over my lap. how it got ther is beyond me. but anyways cleaning up messes are never fun so with my pee like stains down the front of my pants i walked to go get napkins to clean the mess up and i dont think i have ever been stared at so much in my life but it diddnt matter because they had no idea how it got there. and thats why all cups need lids that cant be taken off to save the humiliation for someones poor soul.

memories

again i am blogging about my brother because that is the only thing that has been on my mind for the past 17 days. my brother has shown up in our day to day lives in so many mysterious ways yet i still miss him but they seem to give me comfort to know that he isw here. recently this past saturday night he has givin my whole family a good laugh. i was in the process of falling asle3ep wen my mom comes flying through my door saying dylan has won the lottery dylan has won the lottery!! i had no clue waqt the crazy woman was talking about so i got out of mhy bed and went into the living room where my mom was speaking on the phone with my deceased brothers best friend dylan and all i could hear was i knew danny boi was watching over us. so i asked wat was going on my mother proceeded to tell me that dylan had won 100000 dollars from the lottery i just couldnt believe and i was told that dylan had used josh's favorite numbers and him and the rest of the boys were looking usw the numbers on the computer screen and just couldnt believe thier eyes. well after calming back down i went back to sleep and wen i woke up i went to church and came home and was askin my mom about the whole lottery thing so she texts dylan and he texts back saying that all night long with all 18 boys they all read the lottery numbers wrong and dylan really only won 3 dollars which he rele didnt win cause he payed 5 dollars for the ticket so we know jodsh was behind that stunt for a little laugh which made us all laugh and let us know hes up there and watching

favorite decoration!

my favorite decoration is the christmas tree because u can decorate the tree any way that you would like. every year i put the same ornaments on the tree plus some new ones that my family has recieved this christmas or bought. but no matter how many times you use the same ornaments the tree never seems to look the same as it did the year before. when i wake up on christmas morning the first thing i do isw look under the tree. the tree means that onm christmas mornming there will be presents underneath it and that i can also put presents underneth it to give to my family. it brings joy to all kids.

R.I.P. Danny Boi

You never realize how much you love your siblings until you have lost one. My brother was one of a kind. No one will ever live up to what i thought of him. Being the only girl with 3 brothers i have learned that we dont show love with hugs and telling eachother how we feel. We showed love through being mean to eachother or fighting because we seem to always know the next day everything was goin to be fine. I regret now not telling my brother how i felt just one time because that is somthing that i cant get back. There are things that wish i could have said or done with him but i cant dwell on the past and must move on the way i do this is by remembering what i did say to him and what we did do. I know that my big brother is looking down on me and i know this because from all of this i have gain 18 more brothers. those 18 boys are the gentlemen who carried my brothers casket. we couldnt pick jus one group to do it because all of these boys loved my brother just the same. So i write this blog in memory of my beloved brother JOSHUA JAMES CALHOUN.

what i love most about apollo

the thing i love most about apollo is that we really dont have outcasts. everyone fit in in their own little clicks and no one is really left out. we are all normal no one is better than the other. i dont feel awkward talking to diffrent people. i always feel welcomed when i come in. i also love how we now have freshman mentors i wish that i would have had a freshmen mentor when i was a freshmen. i would have felt alot more at ease instead of always being nervous when all along there was no reason to be nervous if i would have had some one to just guide me around and let me know that the upper classmen werent really going to hurt me or scare me freshman year would have went alot smoother.

first year not trick or treating:(

this will be my first year not trick or treating myself. after last year that i had the people that i was getting candy from trying to also get my number i thought it would be time to hang up the costumes and not go. also when the people that i was trick or treating at were asking me how old i was and why i was out. when people say these things to me it just breaks my heart. but it is ok i can still dress up and go to a place where people my age don't very well look stupid, a costume party. i cant wait i even had my nails done for halloween.

almost halloween!

my favorite time of the year. halloween is so fun. i love to stand at my door and wait for all the trick or treaters to come with their cute costumes on and give them the candy that the waited so patiently on. this year i will be working on halloween :( but it is good in a way my boss every year makes goody bags for all the trick or treaters that decide to come up to my work so i still get to see those cute little smiles when i put a little goody bag in their pillow cases. i am even dressing up at work to be more in the spirit for my favorite time of the year!

junior year

this year has been the most stressfull one i have ever endured. i figured coming into it that it couldnt be any worse that sophmore. ohhhh how i was wrong. this year i just feel like all of my teachers get together and decide to make all of my homework due on the same day so they make sure i have no life. i guess thats the price i pay when i decidded to be in all honors and ib classes. in a sence i feel as if i bit off more than i could chew. im just hoping to make it through with passing grades. not only do i have no life i have lost about 50% of my sleep also. having a job and then having to come home and do hours of homework has been rough but i guess we all learn from our mistakes.

fall break

over fall break i went to the science museum in nashville. my mother thought it would be good if i hung out with her boyfriends 10 year old daughter the whole time i was down there. now i thought this would be the most boring thing that i had ever done. i thought wrong. this little girl has the biggest imagination that made everything we did so fun. while we where at the science museum we played on this huge playground full of science and of couse 10 year old natalie made me crawl through every singe part of the play ground. then when we reached the top she raced me back down to the bottom which of cource i let her win. anyways this was the most fun i had had in a long time and the whole time i was anticipating it to be the worst.

Halloween!

As Halloween approaches it has me thinking about everything that is scary. when i think of Halloween i see costumes, decorations, cobwebs, and grave yards. i smell pumpkin pie, the sweet smell of all the candies, and sweat from wearing a costume too long. i feel gooey eye balls as i am instructed to put my hand in a bowl while going through a haunted house. i hear screams from all the scared children, witch laughs, and doorbell ringing. Halloween has its own senses and they are somthing one can never forget.

scared to sleep!

i was in full sleep mode at 1 a.m. when i heard my mom screaming in the night "get away from my door". after i heard my mother scream this a few times i decided that it might be in my best intrest to figure out what was going on. so i rose from my bed and opened my bedroom door to see my mom in a frantic holding her phone still screaming "get away from my door!" then i looked to my front door to see a black figure banging on my front door and turning the knob that was locked realizing he couldnt get in then trying to push and beat his way in. by htis time my mom had already threatened to call the cops several times and had told me to go lock my window. i was too scared to even move so i didnt lock my window and proceeded to listen to screaming and banging. finally my mom sed again im going to call the cops and then i heard the figure say "its meeee!" knowing the voice me and mom moved to the door and opened it to find my 20 year old brother dressed head to toe in a big monster costume saying he was trying to get in.

i was afraid of....

as a child i was afraid of many things. the first time i watched the exorcist i was about 8 and i was so scared that i wouldnt move from the couch to go to bed because i was afraid that the possesed girl would come after me and puke on me while her head was spinning round and round. when i finnally went to bed i turned on all the lights in the house and raced to my room and tried to fall asleep when i started to feel somthing shaking my bed and i thought it was just in my head but this shaking went on for a couple more minutes so i ran off in a hurry scared for my life and come to find out my older brother had been under my bed the whole time waiting for me to go to bed so he could scare me i was also told as a child that if i didnt clean my fingernails everyday that i woulod get worms. another thing my mom lied to me about was that if i was tucked into my bed tight enough that the field mice would come into my room crawl up into my bed and eat me, but i think she told me that one out of pleasure.

fight with dignity

is it better to fight with dignity or surrender with shame? i think it is better to fight with dignity. i am a very argumentive person when it comes to things i strongly believe in. when someone questions my beliefs i become very defensive and "fight with dignity". i have been like this all my life, i speak up for what i stand for and what i think is right. i never let anyone push their beliefs or opinions on me. i simply agree to disagree because i won't come down. it doesnt matter who it is i will always stand my ground!

something to think a bout

"never be afraid to sit awhile and think" is a quote by Lorraine Hansberry. alot of us forget to simply take a break from our hectic lives and jus think. Its hard to do when we become so consumed by our daily schedules. at times it becomes to stressful to be so involved all of the time. thats why i like this quote because it gives us a chance to stop and realize everything that is going on. it is a good idea to take a breather and just sit, relax, and rest.

act slowly!

i think that before you do somthing you should think it over therefore you are acting slowly. acting slowly can help you in the long run from getting your self into trouble. if you think before you act you might be better off. cause you may think fast but allow yourself time to rethink what your about to do before you do it. i dont usually rethink things over before i say them and usually i say them and get myself into a lot of trouble. my mouth is the action i dont do slowly.

Money

money is not everything. to be happy you truly don't have to be rich you can find happiness elsewhere. i dont care what everyone thinks no matter how much money i get it will never bring happiness that priceless things can. family and friends should bring happiness to everyone one and not materialistic things

deadliest tan!

oh my lord! wow, i didn't know the price of a tan was so high. scientists have proven that tanning beds can be a great cause of skin cancer. i never knew that by going to the tanning bed i was putting myself into danger. unfortunately i still continue to go. its like a relaxing place the warmness just calms me. but a girl of my fair skin is way more susceptible to receive skin cancer. so by going to the tanning bed especially before the age of thirty i ma most likely doubling my chance to have skin cancer.

Luckyyy man

what you here in the news today can be so overwhelming its just mindboggling. i heard in the news just yesterday that a drunken teen making his way back from a festival in europe decided to take a nap on a railway track. what amazes me is that a train roared over him and the 19 year old man remained asleep through the whole incident. the train was not able to stop until a few hundred meters past the teen. the young man walked away with only a few grease stains on the back of his jacket. god was obviously watching over him. all of these cazy storries are just unreal and draw me in to want to know how these type of things happen.

doing somthing good!

about a week or two ago my youth group pitched in to help an individiual with cancer. we through together a big mud pit and raised money for this young lady to help towards her hospital bills. we have been raising money for her. i think no one should deserve to go though what she is going through. so in any way that my church can be of assistance we are there in a flash. i have knownm this girl for quite sometime and it just broke my heart to hear what she is going through and not knowing what is going ot happen next but she continues to have hope and i always keep her in my prayers.

homework!!

wow! i never have time to do my homework anymore. i am always so busy and it stresses me out -so much. i dont know why i always have so much homework and most of the time i have to do it when i wake up the mext morning and i dont always complete it. having a job and havin all of this homework is just way too much. i don't know what to do about it anymore. i try my hardest to get everything i need done but i dont always succeed. i just need a break from school........

can't wait!

home is just a place i sleep. after i am done with high school my next goal is to move imediately out. i cant wait to get the privacy i deserve. the only person who makes home feel like home for me is myself. just the adventure of finally being out on my own will be pleasing enough for me. although i willl miss my family it willl be more rewarding knowing that i can take care of my self with out their help

Oh Brother!

Brothers can be the most annoying siblings. like when your trying to sleep and your oldest brother of 20 decides that to wake you up it would be a good idea to stick his fingers in your mouth. well he soon found out he was wrong although it was his birthday i found no humor in his childish ways. then you try to lay in your bed and it collapses because earlyier that day the same oldest of your three brothers decides he is goin to run and jump on to your bed to take a nap while you arent home. while he is taking a nap he hears a loud noice coming from the bed but instead of trying to figure out what happened he just leaves and acts like he does not know what happens so he has set up a plan for disaster that his little sister will soon deal with. in the end they can be the greatest siblings too. as you can tell he did make up for breaking the bed by fixing it!

jus like mom

the person i think i am most like is my mom. we both are pretty smart but struggle in the common sence area. many people say i look jus like her and we have some of the same body features. about half a year ago i had 12 inches cut off my hair and now i have a hair cut that suposively looks like my moms hair too i did this with out the knowledge that i would look like her after i had it cut. we are both very stongly opionated women and tend to argue our points for an extensive amount of time without giving in to the other one.